My English Class 2017 and some random rant

Hi Sydney...I miss you big time!!! Am praying hard to be there again..Well, i am writing today is not only telling you about how i miss you but to tell the story of how my English class for today.

We are creating blogs to make our learning interesting. It's not a new thing anyway but the students look so excited and it will boost their spirit to learn English.

It has been so long since i write in this blog..Being buzy with family and of course my little pumpkin who is now 1y and 10 months.

I am looking forward for an interview so that i can further my study and pursue my dream to become a PhD holder. So do pray for me aye!!!

Last holiday, I did something that I had not done for a long time. I read all my collections of HLOVATE novels..It was so refreshing..I felt like I am in my twenties again..ahaha

ops..time is up...see u later dear blog

xoxo

My little pumpkin is on the way - 1

Assalamualaikum wbt...

So, it is already week 40 plus 2 days extra which means overdue!!! Ohh little pumpkin when are you coming out...mama and abah can't wait to see you...

is it really good to be in mama's tummy? hihihi


24th Nov 2015

Mama went to the KK Padang Hiliran for a check up and doctor decided to give another 1 week for you to be in mama's tummy. Alhamdulillah you are in a good health..Mama can see you from the screen clearly and dear my little pumpkin you can't imagine how big you are. Abah took a leave on that day just to send Mama to the KK but in the evening, Abah had to go back to Muadzam since you are still happily residing in Mama's tummy..and believe it or not, Mama didn't feel any single contraction on that day or a day before.


25th Nov 2015

Mama had a good day. Mama went out with Grandma, Auntie Ya and Auntie Lin from morning to night. Mama really had to walk a lot so dilation process would be starting soon. Mama also did exercises in the room (jalan itik and joget2 a bit)..It was tiring but quite fun..Hihi..Abah was back in Muadzam but Mama knew that his heart was with us all the time..Seriously my little pumpkin, Abah had no spirit to work since he was eagerly waiting for you to come out. Mama also talked to you, persuading you to come out faster. Mama is afraid of being induced..Mintak jauhhh...hehehe..
Oh my!!! it was 1.45 am and Mama woke up feeling the pain of contraction. Mama wrote down the time of the contraction eventhough it was a very mild one. Mama just couldn't sleep but later on, Mama dozed off..hehe...at 3.00 am, the pain came again..then, at 6 a.m it repeated. Mama performed my Subuh prayer and woke Abah up. Oh dear!!!!baby please come out!!!

26th Nov 2015

Mama went to the town area with Grandma and after we fetched Auntie Ya from the hospital, we went to Paparich for lunch. There it went..A feeling of not so mild contraction for 10 minutes..Then, it disappeared until now..So, lets wait until the next one..Come out faster baby!!! Hopefully something will turn out tonight...InsyaAllah

To be continued...

Oh Allah ease our journey...Grant us with a pious daughter who will be a good muslim..Amin...

Waiting for the most precious gift..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Hi there..now I'm in week 37 and going to be week 38 of pregnancy this coming Tuesday. SubhanAllah what a blessing from Him to be able to have the feeling of being a pregnant lady. It is not a smooth journey as I had a few 'alahan' during my 2nd trimester which I believe was a test for me.

Alhamdulillah I get tremendous  supports from dearest husband, families as well as friends. May Allah repay all of you with His blessings.

I am counting days for the little one to come out. I am praying the best for my little one.

Do pray for us =)



p/s: my concern is how to raise a caliph to become a good muslim that will serve the ummah.. --"
       may Allah ease everything for us...

Kau ditakdirkan untukku

Kau ditakdirkan untukku..

Dari saat pertama akad dilafaz,

Di saat itu, perkenalan kita bermula.

Setiap detik yang berlalu hingga kini,

Terasa begitu berharga

Ada sahaja perkara baru yang ku tahu tentang dirimu

Dan aku terima lebih dan kurangmu

Kerana aku tahu kau juga begitu

Kau ditakdirkan untukku..

Aku terkesan dengan perilakumu

Aku tertunduk dengan kata nasihatmu

Aku kagum dengan kesabaranmu

Aku bersyukur dengan keimananmu

Aku bahaga dengan kasih sayangmu

Kau ditakdirkan untukku..

Aku melafaz rasa bersyukur padaMu Tuhan

Dikurniakan pendamping yang menjagaku

Menjaga maruahku dari fitnah dunia terhadap wanita

Menjaga hatiku dari kotoran-kotoran mazmumah

Menjaga lidahku dari berkata buruk

Kau ditakdirkan untukku..

Terima kasih atas segalanya

Silap tingkahku, silap lisanku

Aku mohon ampun sepenuh hati

Kerna kutahu mana letaknya syurgaku

Redha Allah itu terletak pada redhamu kepadaku

Kau yang ditakdirkan untukku..

Wahai suamiku.

Semoga imanmu sentiasa dipeliharaNya

Semoga aqidah sentiasa dijagaNya

Semoga dirimu sentiasa daam lindunganNya

-p/s: Mohd Fadzlam Saari

         (hadiah Allah dari langit untukku )

=)

New Phase in my life..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Alhamdulillah..=)

Saya masih bernafas dengan nikmat iman dan islam yang diberikan Allah dan semoga ianya sampai ke akhir hayat saya..

Blog yang sangat lama tidak dijamah..What a buzy and hectic life I am having nowadays. Pejam celik pejam celik..it has been 3 months since i have been declared as husband and wife, one of the greatest bond which is the "misthaqan ghaliza".. Perjanjian yang kukuh dan kuat antara seorang suami dan seorang isteri dan amat tinggi nilainya dalam Islam.

Nak berkongsi pengalaman dan asam garam kehidupan setelah berumah tangga? Rasa masih tidak layak kerana usia pernikahan baru setahun jagung..owh mgkin bukan setahun jagung...tapi masih diperingkat anak benih yang disemai..

It is a new phase for me where I need to realize that my focus and loyalty have shifted from my parents to this one great man. Knowing him since 2006 but never realize that he is my destiny. Until last year, we had come to an agreement to get married. We just got to know each other more in the middle of last year and end of year, we were married. That was the 6th time we met each other. =)..It's a miracle kan? 

Rasa bersyukur yang tidak terhingga kerana dikurniakan seorang teman hidup yang sangat memahami dan penyabar..It is a blessing from Allah to have him in my life..

Sedikit pesanan untuk diri sendiri:

"-Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w yang bermaksud : “Apabila seorang wanita (isteri) itu telah melakukan sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan Ramadhan, menjaga maruahnya dan mentaati perintah suaminya, maka ia dijemput di akhirat supaya masuk Syurga mengikut pintunya mana yang ia suka (mengikut pilihannya).”

(Hadis Riwayat Ahmad, Ibnu Hibban dan Thabrani)"

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda yang maksudnya:“Sebaik-baik isteri ialah yang dapat menyenangkan hati suaminya apabila engkau (suami) melihatnya dan apabila disuruh dia menurut perintahmu, dan dia dapat menjaga kehormatan dirinya dan hartamu ketika engkau tiada di rumah.”

(Riwayat Thabrani)

MARI MENJADI ISTERI YANG SOLEHAH 

Hadiah dari langit

Dear blog,

I miss you..=)

Assalamualaikum wbt..

It has been ages since the last time I updated this blog..I have been inspired by someone to continue writing in this blog..It does feel good to be back again..

Well, people...

I am thankful with what I have now.
There's nothing more that I can ask for from Allah SWT
I am really contented with the blessing that He has given me.
Allah's blessings are beyond my expectation..

So, yes..I am really glad..=)

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah

Indeed, what Allah has promised in the Quran is so so so true..

Surely, there is ease after hardship
Aye, surely there is ease after hardship
(Al-Insyirah: 6, 7)


p/s: Dear Allah, let me be the one who will always remember You
     : Alhamdulillah sbb sy dpt hadiah yg jatuh dari langit..=)

I'm back in here again: 2013

Assalamualaikum wbt..

I'm back..Alhamdulillah....

Now, I am in the middle of reading an inspiring book by Yasmin Mogahed. The title is "Reclaim you heart".. What a good book for one to reflect on oneself and understand the nature of this life.Yes, some of us actually already know what is the meaning of this life from the point of view of a muslim. However, as we are the 'al-insan' which mean always being the one who forget things, we need reminders (tazkirah) to keep on reminding us so that we are not going astray from the right path.Let me share one of the pearls inside the book.

EMPTYING THE VESSEL

"Before you can fill any vessel, you must first empty it. The heart is a vessel. And like any vessel, the heart too must be emptied-before it can be filled. One can never hope to fill the heart with God, so long as that vessel is full of other than Him subhanahu taa'la (exalted He is)" To empty the heart doesn't mean to not love. On the contrary, true love, as God intended it, it purest when it is not based on a false attachment.

See...I love the words that Yasmin has used..Deep..very deep..let's think....=)

Oh Dear,

As long as eyes can see, 

As long as heart can beat,

As long as we are still in this world,

The journey is still there

For some people, it has begun for a long time

And for some people it has just started

What ever it is, as long as we are in this journey,

We are under the blessing of Allah

What journey that I am talking about?

It is the journey of coming back to the only path that the God Almighty has chosen for us..

It is ISLAM

Wallahualam...

It does feel good to return back to this blog..=)

The power of ' Doa '

Assalamualaikum wbt....I would like to share this marvellous and heart purifying story. It is taken from Suhaibwebb.com...

Dr. Saed, a well-known doctor, was once on his way to an important medical conference in another city in which he was going to be granted an award for medical research he had recently done. He could barely contain his excitement on his way to the airport and couldn't wait until he arrived at the conference. He had worked long and hard on his research and felt his efforts deserved the award he was about to obtain. However, an hour after the plane took off, the pilot announced that there was a problem with the plane and that they were going to make an emergency landing at the nearest airport.

Afraid that he wouldn't make it in time for the conference, the doctor ran to the information desk as soon as the plane landed and explained to the woman at the desk that he was expected to be at a very important conference and that he needed to find another war to get to his destination. She told him that there was nothing she could do to help him as there wouldn't be another flight to his destination for another sixteen hours; but suggested he rent a car and drive down to the city as it was only three hours away. Having no other choice, the doctor agreed to the idea despite his hatred for driving long distances.

The doctor rented a car and started his journey. However, soon after he left, the weather suddenly changed and heavy storm began. The pouring rain made it very difficult form him to see and he missed a turn he was supposed to take. After two hours of driving, he was convinced he was lost. Driving in the heavy rain on a deserted road, feeling hungry and tired, he frantically began to look for any sign of civilization. After some time, he finally came across a dark tiny cottage. Desperate, he got out of the car and knocked on the door.

A small elderly woman opened the door for him. He explained his situation and asked if he could use her telephone, She told him she didn't have a phone or electricity but that he was welcome to come in for some food and something warm to drink as he completely lost his way and that it would take him some time to get back on the right road. Hungry, wet and exhausted, the doctor accepted her kind offer and walked in, The woman told him to help himself to some food and hot tea on the table and then helped herself to finish her prayers. Sitting on the table sipping his tea, the doctor watched the woman in the dim light of the candles as she prayed next to what appeared to be a small baby crib. Every time she finished a prayer, she would start another one, and she seemed to be engrossed in making du'a' while in sujood (prostration). Every now and then she would rock the crib gently.

Feeling that the woman might be in need of help, the doctor seized the opportunity to speak as soon as she finished one of her prayers and told her that he hoped Allah (swt) would answer his du'a'. He then said that he noticed that she had been making a lot of du'a' and asked if there was something she needed that she could fet for her or help her with. The woman smiled and said that Allah (swt) had answered all her prayers accept for one. She said she didn't know why Allah (swt) hadn't answered this specific prayer yet but perhaps it was because of her weak iman (faith).

The doctor asked if she didn't mind telling him what she was making the du'a' for. Nodding her head in approval, she said that the child in the crib was her grandson and that both his parents had recently died in a car accident. She said that the child had a rare type of cancer and that all the doctors she had seen were unable to treat him. She also said that she had been told there was a doctor who specialized in the type of cancer her grandson had, but there was no way for her to get to this doctor who lived far away from her; so she has been spending her days and nights praying and making du'a' that Allah (swt) helps her find a way to get to Dr Saeed-the doctor who could treat her grandson.

Upon hearing her words, tears began to floe down the doctor's cheeks and he said: SubhanAllah (glory be to God), there was a malfunction in the plane, a thunderstorm hit, and I lost my way, and all of this happened because Allah (swt) did not just answer your prayer by helping you find a way to get to Dr. Saeed, but he brought Dr. Saeed to your house. "I am Dr. Saeed"

Tears streaming down her cheecks, the woman raised her hands in du'a' and said; 'Oh Allah, how great and merciful You are!!!!

p/s: sweet and beautiful aye...=)...

"And whoever fears Allah, He will make for him a way out/ And will provide for him from where he does not expect"- (65:2-3)


"And when my seravnts ask you, [ O Muhammad ], concerning Me- indeed I am near, I respond to the invocation of every supplicant when he calls upon Me.. (2: 186)

Under the shades of His blessings

Assalamualaikum wbt...

When I look through my journey back then, I feel so blessed. I am blessed with everything and anything that has turned me into what I am today. For all the things that I need to give in and receive are actually part and parcel of life that I need to face. I have realized that they come with reasons..

So, dear Allah...please..
bless me with your blessings..
forgive me when I disobey You..
grant my wishes as You are the only one that I could ask from

Wallahualam...
                 

Dear you

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Dear you,you are now being tested with a huge test. Just remember that you have Allah, your family,your masulah and friends..You know this is the sign and the big alarm for you to take action.

Alhamdulillah there's a relief after each difficulty...





=)..yey...=)

I need a life jacket here!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Happy holiday to ols..finally, i manage to rest myself after three exhausting weeks. Fuhh!!!..well, This holiday is not actually be as it supposed to be..hurm..i have to train my boys and girls for a drama comp which will be exactly after this holiday..to make it clear, 2 days after this holiday which reminds me that" hello, there's not much time left".."too many things to do"...the props aren't ready yet "...hey relax...this is a team work so dont worry because we still have some time to do it..insyaAllah...(ok thats just a monologue)..so ignore it...

Focusing on the topic for this post, it is a kind of reminder for me so that I am not strong enough to be alone...meaning is that when we are far away from regular tarbiyah ( education specifically about Islam), we tend to do the things that Allah dont really like it and the worst part of all, it gives us more sins..Being so long, not going to usrah and certain programmes that really helps to clean your heart, is a big danger..An analogy that i can put here is that you are swimming in the sea and you are about to drown..Suddenly there are people who come and give you a life jacket where you will can swim without being afraid of drowning.Just assume the sea as this life. Drowning here as You blend with world and with high possibilities to go astray from the right path.Whike the life jacket is the factor that can bring you back living in the islamic way.

Living in this hectic world, esp when you have your own career really takes a lot of your time and usually in a day, you just have the time to eat, sleep and pray. It is also a burden for you when you are a new people there and people use this chance to give you a lot of works. All this things consume a alot of your time and you dont even have the time to refresh your self..not to forget the most important thing which is your IMAN...

Need to put a stop here...this is fariena reminds you as well as reminding herself in case we forgot..

Wallahualam...

Perihal budak asrama

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Bermula daripada 3hb Januari sehingga sekarang, macam-macam perkara yang telah berlaku. Ini saya ceritakan mengenai keadaan di asrama.

1) Satu kes yang amat menyedihkan iaitu ada pelajar puteri yang hilang daripada asrama. Bila dicari, rupanya dikatakan mengikut teman lelakinya ke bandar dan seterusnya tidak berani untuk pulang ke asrama kerana telah lewat. Setelah itu, menumpang tidur di rumah kawannya. Wallahualam apa yang terjadi pada dia..Semoga Allah melindunginya..

2) Satu kes mengenai seorang pelajar tingkatan satu yang ditangkap tidak mengerjakan solat. SOlat itu katanya tidak perlu dan tidak dia ketahui apa kepentingan solat. Bila ditanya, rupanya ibu dan bapanya juga tidak pernah memarahi dia bila tidak bersolat. Bahkan ibu bapanya juga turut tidak bersolat. Setelah diberikan nasihat akhirnya dia berjanji untuk solat. Tapi kembali dengan tabiat lamanya. Ditambah pula dengan suka melawan cakap.

3) Satu kes mengenai pelajar yang suka menipu bila ditanya akan kesalahannya. Akhirnya tertangkap juga perangai buruknya itu apabila cerita rekaannya itu tidak masuk akal dan telah menyebabkan timbulnya syak wasangka kepada orang yang difitnah.

Akhirnya ketiga-tiga mereka ini dibuang asrama. Lalu disebabkan oleh kedudukan rumah yang jauh dari sekolah, terpaksa mereka ini bertukar ke sekolah yang lebih dekat. Sangat merugikan mereka kerana mereka pelajar yang pandai dan terpilih untuk berada di sekolah premier. Tapi kerana kesilapan-kesilapan itu, mereka terpaksa ke sekolah yang kurang elok.

Tapi bukan itu yang saya khuatirkan.. Setiap kali kes-kes tersebut terjadi dan pelajar terpaksa dibuang asrama, saya memikirkan siapa lagi yang akan mendidik mereka selepas itu. Tapi, undang-undang tetap perlu dijaga.

Akhirnya terdetik di hati kecil ini, terpaksa melepaskan mereka dan tumpukan perhatian kepada pelajar yang masih tinggal. Semoga Allah mempertemukan mereka dengan orang yang benar-benar mampu membimbing mereka..Amin..

Website best...=)

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Yess..Alhamdulillah akhirnya ada website yang menarik untuk para remaja sekalian..Best sangat-sangat website ini. Penuh dengan ?????

Kalau nak tahu apa yang ada di situ, sila layari Muslim Teen Digest

Seronok sangat...=)

p/s:boleh hebah-hebahkan ye...

Tsabatkan aku ya Allah

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Alhamdulillah minggu yang lepas, saya diizinkan Allah untuk mengikuti satu program di Bangi dan perjalanan yang jauh menyebabkan saya terpaksa menumpang di salah sebuah rumah akhwat di Bangi. Berada dalam 'biah solehah' ketika berada di rumah itu sangat mengembalikan saya kepada kenangan sewaktu masih menuntut dahulu. Saya juga bertuah kerana dapat bersama dalam majlis tazkirah yang dibuat setelah selesai solat subuh. Berkobar-kobar penuh bersemangat adik ini menyampaikan isinya ditambah pula dengan pendapat dan ilmu dari rakan-rakan sebagai rencah untuk mengenakkan lagi perkongsian pada pagi itu. Saya hanya memerhati dan mengimbas kenangan dahulu. Dalam hati ini berdoa bersungguh-sungguh semoga adik-adik ini tsabat dan terus berada di atas saff yang sentiasa bekerja untuk memartabatkan Islam.

Bukan apa, setelah melalui pelbagai halangan dan rintangan setelah belajar dan juga ketika bekerja, hanya beberapa kerat sahaja yang masih terus berada di saff ini. Yang lainnya seperti membeku di tempat masing-masing. Saya juga pernah melalui fasa itu tetapi kerana bimbang akan terus terkeluar dari saff ini, digagahkan juga diri walau terpaksa melakukan segalanya untuk ke satu program sahaja.Betapa kuatnya dugaan dunia hingga daie yang paling lantang hujahnya pun boleh berdiam diri begitu sahaja.Hurm...

Semoga masing-masing terus tsabat untuk berada di jalan yang telah dipilih dan walaupun telah jauh melencong, segeralah kembali kerana tapisan Allah itu sentiasa ada untuk orang-orang yang benar-benar mahu membawa agamanya..

Tsabatkan aku ya Allah jika aku Kau uji dengan ujian ini nanti kerana tiada jaminan yang aku akan terus berada di jalanMu jika hanya dengan kudrat ku sendiri.

wallahualam...

I just lost a chance to do good

Assalamualaikum wbt...

hurm..today I had just lost a chance to do one good deed. I was quite stressed with all the school stuff especially when I had hundreds of essays to mark. It really put me in a not that good condition. So what happened was I was asked by one of the teachers to send sick students to the hospital. On my way back, at a traffic light, a makcik knocked my window and asked me where I was heading to. I think, that makcik aged around 60 plus based on her look. She said she wanted to go to the town but my destination was a different one. She also said she did not know how to ride the bus to go there. Hurm..actually, I was rushing to go back to school since I had class after that and the traffic light was already green at that time. When the makcik said, "oh tak pergi bandar ke? tak apa lah". I smiled at her and drove my car in a high speed because I was afraid I would miss the green light.

Ehem2..well, honestly speaking, when the makcik knocked the window, I went goose bump. I remembered one of the teachers told me her own experience giving a ride to an unknown makcik. After she sent that makcik to the destination, the makcik suddenly disappeared just like that when she turned around to say good bye to that unknown makcik. So, it was not really interesting to listen to that kind of story right!!

However, all the way back, I kept thinking of that makcik and I really felt ashamed with my self. I should have helped her. It took only 3 minutes to go to the town. Then, I made a u-turn and went to that spot where I met her but she was nowhere to be seen. I searched everywhere but there was no sign of her. Hurm....weirdo..anyway, I did feel frustrated because I thought that Allah might send her to me and wanted to test my iman. Which state was my iman was at that moment.

No doubt, I just lost the chance to do good and we never know when we will be given with such opportunity again.

hurmfff...

Wallahualam...

Sedikit kecewa yang bertandang

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Alhamdulillah perhimpunan sejuta ummat iaitu HIMPUN telah selamat dan berjaya dilaksanakan pada hari Sabtu yang lepas. Walaupun jasad saya tiada di situ, tapi hati tetap bersama mereka yang berhimpun untuk mempertahankan aqidah ummat Islam..

Pelbagai feedback yang saya baca daripada pelbagai pihak mengenai HIMPUN ini. Ada yang negatif dan ada yang positif. Kalau yang positif itu alhamdulillah. Namun, ada individu-individu yang terus-terusan mengutuk usaha NGO-NGO Islam yang mahu berganding bahu membuka mata rakyat Malaysia bahawa kami "ummat Islam" masih ada dan jangan perlekehkan agama kami. Kenapa harus begitu? Jika kamu tidak suka dan tidak mahu ikut serta, tak apa. Ini bukan satu paksaan. Ini adalah usaha pihak-pihak yang memilih untuk mempertahankan agama melalui perhimpunan sebegini.

Saya memang memihak kepada HIMPUN kerana saya sebahagian daripada mereka. Saya ditarbiyah dalam jemaah yang menjadi salah satu tulang belakang kepada HIMPUN iaitu ISMA.

Kita ada cara kita masing-masing untuk menaikkan Islam. Ini cara kami dan mungkin kamu ada cara kamu tersendiri. Tapi pada hakikatnya matlamat kita sama hanyalah untuk menaikkan addin kita ini kembali. Saya begitu sedih bila ada individu-individu yang menghina perjuangan yang dibawa oleh ISMA. Mengata itu dan ini..Saya tidak katakan jemaah yang saya pilih ini memang perfect. Mesti ada juga cacat cela di mana-mana tapi akan cuba diperbaiki.

Sepanjang berada dalam jemaah ini, langsung tidak pernah saya mendengar sebarang kutukan daripada pihak atasan terhadap pihak lain. Kami hanya ditekankan bahawa setiap orang ada cara yang berbeza untuk bekerja. Jadi berlapang dadalah kamu. Jika ada yang setuju, ikut tapi kalau tidak, diamkan sahaja.

Jadi bagi saya, kami dengan cara kami dan kamu dengan cara kamu. Mana-mana sahaja cara yang diusahakan untuk menaikkan kembali islam ini, kami terima dengan hati terbuka.

Semoga kita bertemu di satu titik yang sama di akhirnya iaitu setelah Islam kembali menakluki dunia ini.

KERANA HANYA DENGAN KESATUAN UMMAT YANG MAMPU MENAIKKAN KEMBALI AGAMA INI

Wallahualam..

Quartet brings me alive

Assalamualaikum.just want to share beautiful words of wisdom..

"She was a flower from the heaven, who came and went but whose scent shall forever remain in my mind"-Saidina Ali..

Kata-kata indah untuk sang isteri..

p/s:tertarik kata-kata ini setelah membaca novel quartet...

wassalam

Advice to those who want to soften their hearts

Dear me..this is specially dedicated to you...

Here..

Eid Mubarak

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Eid Mubarak to everyone...

Nothing much to say...Till then..

p/s: I really miss this blog..

update

Assalamualaikum wbt..lama sungguh tidak bertandang ke blog ini. Lama juga tidak menulis dan yang seangkatan dengannya. Bukan apa tapi kesibukkan sehari-hari yang menghambat diri dari berkongsi cerita.

Apa khabar sekarang? Ramadhan semakin menjelma dan tidak sabar rasanya untuk menemuinya. Ingin sekali saya rasakan bagaimana Ramadhan ketika sudah bekerja. Adakah sama dengan sewaktu belajar dahulu? Sudah tentu tidak. Menjadi seorang guru dan juga warden memang mengambil masa 24 jam dan 7 hari sepenuhnya. Setelah pulang dari sekolah kira-kira jam 5 petang, disambung pula tugas di asrama seperti memastikan pelajar ke surau, tidak ponteng kelas prep malam dan jika ada yang sakit, hantar mereka ke hospital. Kalau di hospital pula, jika tidak ramai orang, paling sekejap cuma 30 minit tapi pernah juga menjangkau selama 2-3 jam menunggu. Sampai tertidur-tidur dibuatnya di kerusi tempat menunggu di hospital.

Kalau waktu belajar itu, mempunyai banyak masa terluang untuk melengkapkan mutabaah amal terutamanya di bulan Ramadhan, boleh membuat masjid hopping iaitu berkunjung ke masjid-masjid di sekitar tempat belajar untuk bersolat terawih dan juga berlumba-lumba dengan akhwat untuk khatam quran. Tapi sekarang, saya bersendiri dan disibukkan dengan kerja-kerja seharian. Akhwat-akhwat yang teman sebilik yang selalu bersama sudah tiada kerana masing-masing tercampak jauh ke tempat yang telah ditetapkan.

Rasanya tahun ini pasti akan berbeza. Amat terasa bagaimana perbezaannya jika berseorangan dan beramai-ramai dalam cuba menjadi muslim yang istiqamah.

Rasanya sampai di sini dahulu.

Wallahualam...

p/s: semoga Ramadhan kali ini menjadi lebih bermakna...=)